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What I have been up to?
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I have been sort of MIA from the dolling community (and life in general) since 2008. I popped up now and then, but not enough to even pretend to understand the drastic evolution and changes this hobby has gone through!
So... I don't know, bear with me please, this post will have many spelling and grammatical errors, but I don't write for so long I almost forgot how to.
People from this community have always been so nice and kind to me, either on long gone foruns or deviantart and I can't help but feel that in this past decade I have been cold and distant to everyone and I am very sorry for not being as supportive as I wish I had been and for not faving and commenting on all your artworks as I wanted to.
Thing is, I have been dealing with OCD all my life, but some years ago it became unbearable and I entered a depression. I spent most of the last years sleeping or waiting to die and didn't have the mental and physical strenght to think up something to draw or even say. I dropped college and shut myself out from the world.
BUT
I have been doing therapy and medication and am so much better. I have been wanting to write a sort of explanation for so long but never knew if I should or if anyone would be interested, but whatever... here it is.
I feel depression has affected my cognitive process deeply, I find it very hard to express myself and this was the main reason I dropped out of college and why this post is so short and simple considering the amount of material I have to write about. It is still hard and almost painful to think, concentrate and organize my thoughts, making me very much antisocial.
Anyway, that's all I think, I want to say I love you all very much, you are all amazing artists and people.
I have been doing some artsy/crafty experimental stuff as part of my recovery (I feel like such a child) and post my progress on Instagram if you are interested. I hope I can slowly, but steadly come back to dolling and do much more than 1 doll a year.
Kisses, hugs and cupcakes :****
So... I don't know, bear with me please, this post will have many spelling and grammatical errors, but I don't write for so long I almost forgot how to.
People from this community have always been so nice and kind to me, either on long gone foruns or deviantart and I can't help but feel that in this past decade I have been cold and distant to everyone and I am very sorry for not being as supportive as I wish I had been and for not faving and commenting on all your artworks as I wanted to.
Thing is, I have been dealing with OCD all my life, but some years ago it became unbearable and I entered a depression. I spent most of the last years sleeping or waiting to die and didn't have the mental and physical strenght to think up something to draw or even say. I dropped college and shut myself out from the world.
BUT
I have been doing therapy and medication and am so much better. I have been wanting to write a sort of explanation for so long but never knew if I should or if anyone would be interested, but whatever... here it is.
I feel depression has affected my cognitive process deeply, I find it very hard to express myself and this was the main reason I dropped out of college and why this post is so short and simple considering the amount of material I have to write about. It is still hard and almost painful to think, concentrate and organize my thoughts, making me very much antisocial.
Anyway, that's all I think, I want to say I love you all very much, you are all amazing artists and people.
I have been doing some artsy/crafty experimental stuff as part of my recovery (I feel like such a child) and post my progress on Instagram if you are interested. I hope I can slowly, but steadly come back to dolling and do much more than 1 doll a year.
Kisses, hugs and cupcakes :****
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Facebool dolling groups
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Any facebook dolling groups going on?
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